IN THE MELODRAMA OF MY LIFE,
YOU HAVE ALWAYS DELIVERED ME!

BABA, am I doing my best?
I’m trying to monitor and follow
the truth of my own perception,
whiwh You say Is the only road
to wholeness

but I feel as lost in the forest of brambles
as was the suitor of Snow White.
Ah, but he did find her! Ah, those fairy tales
with their trails of bread crumbs,
the help given by forest animals
whom the hero had once helped!
BABA, those helpers are all YOU!
You are God AND You
have shown me that conclusively
much more than once or twice!

You have shown me in the period
after being broken and lost
when You carried me each evening
down the well of myself in a bucket
to the place where my world was NOT broken
but whole and Shining, and You let me
bring up that Beauty every night
and make it visible in color on a canvas
until it flooded my world and brought me
back to life again!

You have NEVER abandoned me!
Another time You got me out of a literal walled prison
when my spirit had been all but snuffed out
and restored me yet again to FEEL and LOVE You.

and still nother time one of Your closest Mandali
closed his eyes and sought Your Guidance
after I came to him in despair,
then opened them, smiled, and said,
“Do not worry. You will get a better job”
and though I had not thought my jobwas the problem,
in short order I got laid off when the company
was sold, and not long after, a friend
came by and said, “Let’s get a taxi to drive,
one of us can work days, the other nights”
and I was off on one of the greatest
adventures of my life.

Why would You abandon me now?
Let me not despair!
GUIDE me, O Lord MEHER,
to access THAT which I too am,
Which can never be removed
but only temporarily hidden.

I will keep calling, calling
YOUR LIGHT by reciting
Your Holy Name!
*****
writing by m.r. 11/4/24
painting: "Balm for a Broken Heart" (2021)